Do you every feel that way?
Not sure if I hate myself, but sometimes I probably act like I do.
I look around me at seriously skinny fit people and I wish I were more like them.
But I don’t end up doing anything to make myself like them. Just wishing to be like them is not going to make me like them. Then why don’t I do something about it?
When I was younger, I prided myself on my will, and determination. If I chose to quit eating meat, I could, if I wanted to do something, I did it, no matter how hard it was. I took care of myself and groomed myself well. I don’t know where I lost that part of me, but somewhere along the way, I almost feel like I must have stopped caring.
I made a few resolutions this week, and I was not successful in keeping a lot of them.
Why not? Have I changed that much? Do I not have control on myself?
I look in the mirror and I see someone I don’t want to – I feel at times that I don’t love me anymore.
I have not been consistently working out or doing anything to support my health.
Did events in my life affect me? Or is it something else? I am not sure. Have you ever felt this way?
In the upcoming week, I am going to be mindful of my resolution and try to stick to
it for the next 5 days. I am also going to add one more resolution to the mix – GYM.
I am going to start by being more regular at the gym – that means spend at least
30 to 45 min each time, for 4 out of 5 days of the week. During this time, I am going to try and run for 2 miles without breaking my speed too much.
I really want the skinny body that I once had (well not really!!) but at least the one I
have always wished I had. Now, the question is, do I want it more than the rest instead of gym, and more than the bag of chips?